Why I love my husband

Oliver~

Eight years ago your mother and I laid next to each other on a futon staring at one another for hours on end. I remember so well the complete infatuation that I had for her and my need to constantly be in her presence. It was all so overwhelming for an 18 year old just starting college but these were the moments that would shape the rest of my life. Never did I imagine that eight years later I would find myself lying in bed awake, staring at you with the same love that I had felt those years before.

A true miracle, a gift from God, is how I describe you. Your mother and I got married in the summer of 03'. At that time I was not ready for children. I was still in school and did not have room in my heart to love another person like I did your mother. But over the years your mother was like an angel who was sent from God to teach me that I did have enough love to raise a child. We tried for a couple of years without much luck until finally we were able to conceive a child, you. I think that in the time of trying God gave us a deeper desire to bring you into our lives. He knew our hearts and when he saw that we were ready he gave us you.

Words cannot describe the feeling I had when I met you. I cried tears of joy thinking "oh my God, look at this child. He is my son and I love him so much!" But this isn't the story of how you came to be rather, it's the story of your being.

Now I lay here awake in the middle of the night, completely overwhelmed by the love I have for you and by the love and admiration I continue to have for your mother.

Lying, just thinking, dreaming of the possibilities for your life. Not of what you will do for a job or what you achieve in school, but whose lives you will touch and how much of Gods love you will give to others.

You are so much more than me Oliver! I say that as I am 26 years old and you are 6 days old. You are not more in age or accomplishments, but more in possibility and hope. My hope for you Oliver is that I am there to walk with you through life to show you the things that fathers show their sons. I hope to be there with you when you need me and I hope that your need for me never lessens. In your lifetime Oliver you will find that not all of the things that you long for will be yours but all of the things that you need will be provided. And of those things Oliver, I hope that you find Gods love, the love of your family and the love of another to be the greatest gifts of all.

I love you Oliver,

Daddy